My [45] dad caught me [18] trying to use his cum as lube

So a bit of background with this. I have always found my dad hot as hell and my attraction only got worse with age. He is 6'4, 215 pounds and muscular with hair in all the right places. I am 5'10, 145 pounds, 6 inch dick with decent girth, nothing crazy, I've starting to put some muscle on but I never lived up to his expectations of being a body builder like he was at my age so things were normally kept brief between us even with it just being me and him in the house after my parents got divorced.

I've know I was gay since I was a teenager and as puberty got into full swing my biggest crush was always my dad. I just had to see all of him at some point so I made it my mission to make it happen.

Fast forward to a week before my 18th birthday.

He is driving me to school and he is making considerable effort to make small talk in any form about how I think my hockey season is going, what nfl team is going to get what player, all of which I couldn't care less about but he was talking to me which made me happy. Then he got on the subject of girls, and as I already mentioned I've known I was gay but I was by no means out especially to him. He asked "if there was anyone I had my eye on" to which responded with "yeah a few people, but I don't see it going anywhere." He just rolled his eyes and said "when I was your age I was fucking everything in sight with ease, I don't get how you aren't blowing at the seems" with a chuckle. I believe the thought of him reminiscing his high school escapades was getting to my dad because I looked down at him and realized he was sporting a half chub through his jeans but I forced myself to look away before I got caught starring.

"Yeah I kinda am if I'm honest, I'm jerking off about every day now just to make it through without losing it." I said. He swallowed his breath and got really pale and said "I didn't need to know that" with a light chuckle. The thing was, even with him denying that, he got fully hard through his jeans and readjusted his shirt quickly to cover it. His dick easily was 7.5 inches plus while hard and I knew I wanted to see it in the flesh. But nonetheless, I dropped the conversation and he dropped me off at school.

Nothing really happened in between then and my birthday but what did shock me was my dad's birthday gift to me. He had a bunch of presents all different sizes and said I only get to keep a few of them. I open up the first couple and it's regular gifts like shirts, shorts, socks, money, etc. But then my dad hands me a few boxes increasing in size.

The first box I open is a cock ring. My mouth DROPS. He is getting red in the face trying to laugh it off and says "I got a bunch of sex toys once I turned 18 and that really helped me step up my game so I think these might help you with that." I couldn't believe it. My dad was giving me sex toys as a birthday gift so casually. I was fighting to keep my dick from being out and tucked it up into the waist band to make it through the rest of the gifts without my dad noticing how turned on I was.

That's when I realized what he said, sex toys, as in plural. I rip open the next few presents and there's handcuffs, nipple clamps, butt plugs, vibrators, ball gag, dildos, and finally, two different fleshlights.

"I've used all of these types of toys at some point or another while fucking girls or on my own and since you seem to be the later, why don't you take one of the flesh lights for a spin." He said. I am leaking precum at this point and it's starting to stain my shirt. My dad then grabs one of the 3 dildos and says "now this is the one the girls really love" with a cheeky grin. I am getting visibly red in the face and just say "thank you dad" He comes over and gives me a hug and I can feel my boner in between our body's and I'm throbbing. He doesn't say anything about it though and just smiles and says "well don't just stand there, go try some of em out and tell me what ones you want"

I grab all of the boxes and one of the fleshlights and sprint upstairs to try using everything at once. I tried the nipple clamps, butt plug and ball gag first and I was leaking precum already. I tried the 4 inch vibrator on myself next with a bit of spit and force I got it to fit and I was a moaning mess. I had to bite down on the ball gag because my room is way too close to my dad's and he definitely would hear me if he was in his room. I really wanted to try the dildos that the girls my dad has been with have loved so much. That's when it hits me. I don't have any lube. It's been about 20 minutes since I ran upstairs and decided to see if I could find something to use as lubrication.

I lose the ball gag and nipple clamps and vibrator and put on a pair of boxers to go and see if my dad had any. As I'm walking down the hall I hear a particular squishing sound repeatedly coming from his room and with his door slightly cracked that's when I see it. My dad is sitting in bed, completely naked. He is sweating, panting, eyes shut, jerking off his dick with the other pocket pussy that I didn't take for my birthday. I immediately froze, I didn't want to move forward or backwards at the risk of him hearing me but also because I wanted to see him cum. I stood there in the doorway, watching my dad stroke his cock faster and faster until his breathing finally hitched and he started thrusting up into the toy instead of jerking it on his dick. I had never been so jealous of a piece of plastic in my life.

He pulled out of the toy and got up and I got to see his whole body and his fully hard cock. He had well defined pecs that bounced with every step covered in curly dark hair, a treasure trail going down to his crotch, and a trimmed bush to match. He was 8 inches and looked as thick as both my thumbs put together. He walked over to his dresser and grabbed underwear and shorts and then walked into his bathroom and started to take a shower.

Now I know that my initial mission was to get lube, but now my dads freshly used, cum filled, pocket pussy was laying causally beside his pillow, and I thought, "what better lube could there be?"

I waited for the shower to start and then carefully tip toed back to my room to grab the dildos and I realized I was only going to have one shot at this and between the 5 inch, 6.5 and 8 inch dildo, I wanted to use the dildo that resembled my dads dick the most.

I crept back into his room carefully and made my way over to his bed where he had left his sweaty mark on the sheets from his jerking session. I figured there wouldn't be any harm in me adding to the mess and he probably wouldn't catch on. I took off my underwear and I grabbed the pocket pussy to put my flashlight up to the lil hole and wanted to see how much was in there so I knew how much lube I'd have. It was filled to the brim and I ended up squeezing to hard and his cum leaked out all over my hand. My heart was pounding as I was in my dad's bed, naked, rock hard, with his cum on my hand and freshly used toy while he was one room over showering naked too. I licked his cum off my hand and it tasted so good. I never felt closer to him. I put the dildo into the pocket pussy and fucked the two toys together to get it nice and wet so I could fuck myself with his cum while imagining the lookalike dildo was my dad's real cock. I pulled it out of the toy and started to slowly ease it inside of me. I got about 4 inches in before it was too much for me to take and I proceeded to fuck myself with the tip plus a few inches fully in and fully out trying to push further in each time. Every thrust in my cock twitched to new levels of hard I never thought existed. I brought his pocket pussy to my mouth and made out with the toy trying to get more cum out so I could taste my dad's cum even more. I was absolutely hooked. I never knew how badly I wanted this until I was doing it and I loved every second of it. I was so close to cumming while my eyes were shut and that's when I hear the door open. In walked my dad, no towel on, fully soft at 4 inches or so, and he looked up at me in his bed, with his pocket pussy to my mouth and dildo in my ass. I froze, but in that moment of shock I pushed the dildo further in accidentally and the sight of my naked dad combined with me tasting his cum sent me over the edge. I came on his bed, my chest, and managed to even hit his pocket pussy in the process, moaning and twitching at the same time.

That's when reality set in. My dad sighed, put on his underwear and shorts, and in a deadpan voice said "glad you had fun now go to your room" he stomped downstairs, opened and then slammed the front door. I was absolutely mortified that he caught me in that moment, but I was absolutely turned on too because this was one of the first times he's seen me completely naked and hard. I got out of his bed, grabbed my toys and went to my room naked to think over what just happened, how I could play it off, something to salvage this relationship. I was so caught up in my head I didn't even realize I left my precum stained underwear in his room until the next morning. This was two days ago and he hadn't said anything since, nothing on the drive to school, dinner or anything, I've got to see what I can do to fix the situation or see how he feels about it. I'll update if something happens.