How i came to spend a whole summer giving oral to my close freind group

Everyone in this story was 18 or 19 for the entire duration of it. Back when I was 18, I fell into a routine of giving the four guys in my friend circle blowjobs pretty much every time we hung out. All of these events are 100% true, although some small details of the conversations have obviously been lost to memory and are paraphrased.

I met these guys in my final year, my family moved around a lot so I had just transferred and didn't really know anyone. Moving around so much made me proficient at making friend quickly and here was no different. I went to a lot of parties and threw a few myself. I can say without ego i was pretty popular. But after a couple months i got assigned to a project with two guys in one of my AP classes that were hilarious, and soon enough I was learning to play DnD with them and playing video games on weekends. We all became close very fast and they became my main friend group. I felt like i fit in with them better than any friend group id had anywhere else.

I got some random shit for it from other girls in my other social circles on 2 occasions. A girl said that i was "weird" for spending most weekends with my friends "doing dork shit" instead of partying with them. Another time someone made a "joke" about how I was a single girl who spends all her time with 4 guys. I never gave a shit, if anything it just made me hang out with them less and my DnD group more. Another thing about moving around so much, you stop really caring so much about your reputation.

Anyway towards the end of the year we were hanging out like usual, me and the two guys from my AP class smoking a little and taking turns on halo. They were making some joke i dont remember, but it was somehow about blowjobs. I asked on a whim if either of them had actually ever had one. They both said they hadn't, I could tell one of my friends was embarrassed by that. I dont know if it was the weed or the fact that it had been a year since I last had a bf so I was kinda needy myself, but I just flat out asked if he wanted one. He threw a little snack cake powdered donut at me and said "you wish". I threw it back at his head and said I wasnt joking. My other friend was speechless when I took donut boy by the wrist and took him to his family's guest room. I got on my knees and just started taking off his pants for him.

He was kinda awkward but I actually thought it was so cute how he was all red in the face, i was surprised myself how eagerly i went in on him but i grabbed his thighs for support and basically swallowed him whole. I liked making him flushed and wanted to chase that. He came in my mouth after probably less than 2 minutes. I gave him a weird hug and we went back to the room with the other guy. He asked if we really just did that? I said yes. He asked donut boy how it was, and he said it was awesome, shes crazy. At this point i was super horny and asked him if he wanted to go into the guest room too? He didn't even say anything, just nodded and walked out and I followed him. He lasted a bit longer and his dick was too big to fit in my throat but he did moan a lot which drove me wild. I had him lay on the bed and laid between his legs, occasionally i was humping his inner calf through my shorts like a dog. I swallowed for him too, and we went back to donut boys room and kept playing halo until 1 am. I was surprised how normal it felt afterwards. They were the same as ever with me, just in a better mood than usual. Then I drove the other guy home and went home myself.

The next weekend all 5 of us were hanging out at that same house again. We were sitting on a trampoline passing around a joint and I asked donut boy if he told our other two friends about last weekend, as I was surprised I hadn't heard any comments yet. Neither of them had said anything, which made me safe with the arrangement. So I told them what happened, and I told them id do that for them too, and I told them if anyone outside our group learns about this I will be cutting everyone's dicks off. I gave head to all four of them over the course of that night. The first two pretty much back to back, and the others a couple hours later because my jaw needed a break. Luckily donut boy was still a quick shot.

And so it went like that pretty much every weekend. We'd hang out, play games, smoke, make fun of each other brutally, id take one of my friends to the guest room. We'd rejoin the group, chill some more, id take another one, and so on. I was honestly very, very happy with the arrangement. It made me feel happy in ways Im not 100% sure how to reason out. But I really loved these dudes and hanging out with them was the most fun ive ever had, even to this day. Not explicitly because of the dick sucking, but it definitely helped. I felt good about it, beyond just thinking it was hot and intimate. 3 of the 4 i think were kinda shy and insecure with girls, and maybe its narcissistic but i think i helped them over that hurdle. I noticed a difference over time at least, unless i just imagined it. And it weirdly gave me a dominant sort of rush sometimes too. Those 3 also had zero sexual experience before me, and it almost felt at times like I was imprinting myself on them mentally in a way I found gratifying.

I had rules about the arrangement, and they always respected them fully:

No one says anything to anyone

No one asks me for a blowjob, wait until I offer

No catching feelings or getting weird on me emotionally

Once the year ended, it was summer. And every weekend turned into me hanging out with at least a couple of them, in varying formations, probably an average of 3 or 4 days a week. We would normally spend the weekends at donut boys house, and our ritual would play out every time. But we'd also take road trips, go to the movies, go kayaking, go out to eat a lot. It really was just like a normal friend group 98% of the time, except now the banter occasionally included them making fun of me for having a ball fetish. But I loved those retards.

None of them ever told anyone else, they kept true to that. None of them ever respected me less over it which I was slightly worried about. They went far out of their ways to help me multiple times. On my birthday they all pooled money and got a really nice electric bicycle and it made me cry (which they were quick to point out was "super gay" of me). Everything was so fun and so easy. But summer had to end, and I had to move again with my family. I still talk to them occasionally but two have girlfriends now, one has a fiance, and they all have serious jobs. You know how it goes. I have zero regrets. Miss you nerds.