I [F] Masturbated for the First Time… and Enjoyed it!

I was raised very conservatively and masturbation was always taboo. I tried it once or twice in high school, but it felt ick and I didn't get anywhere with it so I don't count that. When I married my husband he was my first and only. He gave me my first orgasm, and only orgasms since for the past 20 years… until now.

A few months ago my husband mentioned that he wanted me to masturbate for him during foreplay. I told him I don't ever do that alone, let alone in front of him. He seemed surprised and asked about it, I gave him the same reasons above. It just feels wrong to me, especially when my husband gives me everything I need. Why would I do it myself when I can do it with him?

He's brought it up a few more times and told me I should try it. He says it would be "hot" if I did. Well I guess he got in my head, because last night he was out at a movie with the kids and I found myself in bed watching TV. Something in the show got me turned on a bit and I thought, "hey, let's try this!"

I reached down and started rubbing myself outside my pants to see if I could even get in the mood or anything, and it worked. I found myself enjoying it a bit, so I put my hand under my pants and rubbed on my panties for a bit. Even better!

Finally I said screw it, and took my pants and panties off and laid in bed rubbing myself. I literally had no idea what I was doing, but just experimenting with what felt good. I eventually ended up rubbing myself outside fingers in a circular motion all around my vagina. It felt great!

I spread my legs and thrust my hips up into my hand, first a bit too much and that wasn't comfortable. Then I found a nice rhythm that worked with thrusting and rubbing faster. When I felt myself getting close, I inserted my middle finger. To be honest, that was a bit weird for me. I tried it for a minute and then went back to rubbing. A few minutes later I reached the tipping point and had a great orgasm that left me exhausted and energized at the same time.

I'd say my first time was a success. I still don't think I could do it in front of my hubby, but maybe one day after some more practice.

A few thoughts to note for myself: I actually enjoyed that quite a bit. I found it fun to explore my own body and try different things without having to worry about pleasing my husband. It was relaxing. The orgasm was different, much different and more exhilarating almost. I need to explore more with my fingers being inserted and see how k can make that feel good. Maybe one day I'll get a vibrator or a dildo or something (never thought I'd be saying that).