my boyfriend runs a 'pro-misogny' blog
Yesterday, I used my boyfriend's laptop while he was at work. I got curious, and looked at his favorited tabs. One of them was a blog about why the patriarchy is a good thing. There were lots of horrible posts about how women are stupid and below men as well as lots of porn photos/gifs. There were also posts about his 'legal teen girlfriend', with descriptions of my job and my appearance. That's how I knew he was the one who ran the blog, and that it wasn't just a blog he followed.
The posts about me were very degrading, saying that I was hot but extremely dumb. Things about how easy it would be able to turn me into a good submissive wife who would obey him.
I'm so disturbed now, I don't know whether it's a fetish/kink for him or an actual world view. But either way, he's been talking about me online, describing my body, calling me horrible names. Most likely it's just a kink thing, but it's making me reevaluate my relationship. I'm wondering whether he just chose to date me because he sees me as young, stupid and easy to manipulate.
He's asked a few times to slap me or choke me in the bedroom (something which I'm not a fan of) and now I'm starting to reevaluate that too.
I don't know what to think.