my fiancé asked me to play dead. we are both morticians.
i am going to start by saying we have been together for 5 years, he proposed this april. we met when i graduated and i did an internship at his workplace. he's a bit older than me (8 years) and we have always gotten along. we are very active and open to exploring each others kinks and we have established boundaries in the bedroom. he has never asked me to play dead up until 2 weeks ago and we haven't had sex since, we usually had sex every other day. he has a very high sex drive.
this is freaking me out because we work with dead people. when i asked him why he wanted me to do so he said "its just something i have always been curious about. look where we work, haven't you ever though of doing it with a body?" i was shocked by what he said and just replied with "no. morally, ethically, and physically, that is just wrong." he just nervous laughed and scratched his neck.
it makes me wonder if he's ever violated a body before and what kind of person is he. that question not only made me feel sick, but it makes me look at him so much differently. i haven't told anyone. not even my therapist. i think i should leave him but i feel as i should pry a bit more to see if he has and report him. i love him so much, but i can't bring myself to see him the same. i don't know if im exaggerating or if my feelings are valid.